9/18/2005

Long time no post.

Yeesh, no kidding. Pretty much everything in my life has been neglected recently. My cat, my motorcyle, Kim, my friends, my family, and even my video gaming time. So here I sit at my computer, a beer on one side and a bag of sour patch on the other, sitting in my new comfy computer chair with a stomach full of reheated chinese food leftovers. Sound sad? Sometimes feels like it. What's worse is that I'm sitting here waiting for something to finish so I can do some more stuff for work tomorrow. Yeesh.

Needless to say, life's been insanely busy with work recently. Got a whole tone to do before the next expansion ships, and just putting out fires takes up the majority of the days. My actual dev time has been cut to less than half recently, which is a little depressing. Been putting in long hours, but but it's nice to come in the next day and have things running smooth :) Also seems like the people I work with appreciate my efforts as well, which is a cool feeling. Just busy, that's all. Many times I've felt like "Well if I don't do it, noone else will." Or they will, but not until it's a huge priority and many other people are gated, which makes me sad.

Anyways - too much work stuff. I got to see Kim this weekend, which was a blast, with the exception of our cats. It was like a freakin' warzone all weekend all my apartment became a nuclear winter of cat fur. >_< And after it's all over, they're both little angels with the Puss in Boots eyes - you know what I'm talking about. Yeah, how can you get mad at a cat that looks like that?

My poor bike has been neglected over the last couple of weeks, and has been sitting in the garage more than it's being ridden, which is sad - it's a beautiful bike, but I've just been at work too late recently, and the weekends have all been quite packed, so I'm hoping to do some maintenance on it this week and take it out this weekend, but we'll see.

I've also been inspired to draw again. Been flipping through some more art sites online, specifically anime. After buying the Megatokyo manga and a few more while in California, I'm starting to see things from an artist's eye again. I even cracked open the untouched sketchbook I got as a gift. Couldn't bring myself to draw in it yet, though...

*it's about at this point wher previously mentioned beer was spilled all over my keyboard. keyboard is disassembled, washed, put out to dry, and a week passes by...*

So yeah, and a week later, I finish my post. I've looked back at some of my unfinished artwork, and I think I might jump back into them and see if I can complete them. (When I see something that captures my attention, I'll normally grab a screenshot of it and start a piece about it - digital, nowadays).

As per music, one of the things that really seems to get to me is the vocals (don't get me wrong, I love all the pieces that compose a song, especially guitar, but there's something about the vocal talents of some artists I really like). There's just something very inspirational about it. The ones that I can think of off the top of my head are: Amy Lee (Evanescence), J.R. Richards (Dishwalla), Jason Wade (Lifehouse), Anna Nalick , Bradon Boyd (Incubus). It always depends on the songs, but it can be breathtaking. I think I'm just envious of people when they can really portray passion through any medium. Especially in a manner where other people that share in their passion. I was complimented on my voice once, but I don't particularly see it. Then again, I'll never hear my voice with an unbiased ear. I try to show my passions through other forms, when I have the oppurtunity. It's that drive that really makes me do most everything I do.

And, just a random goofy link: why game designers shouldn't be fashion designers.

I did, however, get to finally take my bike out this weekend - went out to see some areas of Austin that are at a higher elevation on Saturday morning, with a bright sunny day. Totally relaxing, no rush to get anywhere, very nice.



I even got a chance to tune it up a little this weekend, tighten the chain, check all the fluid levels so it runns a little nicer. Even got a pic of me in my gear this weekend, and got to go riding with my roommate Joe (although his 'Busa has almost 1000 miles compared to the 350 ish on my Thundercat).

Still dealing with some fear while on my bike though. I feel confident on my bike when at speed, but ever since my accident, have had difficulty leaning the bike over in 90 degree turns. I just keep getting afraid the same thing is going to happen, so I end up slowing down a whole lot when I make those turns. It wouldn't be a problem doing that and slowly getting the confidence up if it weren't for the people who get damn annoyed on my tail when I slow for those turns. Not too bad, I'm still gonna take it slow, build the confidence over time.

Another week of work is starting up - hoping this one won't be too stressful. Just living day by day - trying to get some joy out of each one. Live's too short to spend it stressed about the little things. SMILE! *^_^*

Enjoy life. Life is worth living. Life should be a joyous thing. - Kamla Saund (my grandmother)

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