Wow... so I survived... skydiving was UNbelievable! I was a little nervous at first, but the second we took off it all went away, and I was more excited than words can express. (Also, I convinced Mike to come too, which made me really happy) So we went up, and they opened the door on the side as the winds whizzed by. We flew for a good ten minutes, and as I got strapped in tight, Aurlie scooted up, and... *WHOOSH!* she flew out the side of the plane. So, I scooted up, strands of my hair whipping my face from the wild winds cutting by, and I kneeled out the plane, and as I looked out to the world below, all around, I was thrown out of the plane, spinning. And at that second, it was AMAZING - you could see the whole world, in EVERY direction, the world seemed so gigantic, and encompassing. And even though there was a guy strapped onto my back, I felt alone, in the sky, able to finally see the world around me, and I screamed - I screamed a scream of excitement about the world, and the experience, about the wind blowing in my face as we free fell. It was spectacularly beautiful. And after about fifteen to twenty seconds, the parachute opened, and we began floating down for about a minute and a half, able to really take a look at the world. Have you ever looked out the window of a plane, and just wanted to see the world unhindered, not in a box? That's what this was - words can't describe the way it looked up there. I strongly encourage everyone to try it at least once. Even our most nervous person (Very nervous) came back completely giddy afterwards. In the words of my tandem instructor - "It really changes your whole life perspective." I couldn't agree more.

Conversation with some of the jumpers at the skydiving place today:

(I'm wearing my Stone Temple Pilots T-shirt at the time.)
Jumper 1: Stone Temple Pilots?... So are you a pilot?
Me: huh?... oh... no, it's a band
Jumper 1: Oh... ok
Jumper 2: Dude, I can't believe you don't know who Stone Temple Pilots are... *sigh*

Anyways, it was funny at the time. ^_^

Argh!! It shouldn't take four and a half hours to set up a damn Internet Sharing Service! DAMN YOU MICROSOFT!!! .... Gonna go get some sleep before tommorow -_-

Hokay, so I'm gonna go jump out of a plane tommorrow... I'm excited, I think it's gonna be a lot of fun, but also just a wee bit terrified... o_O Anyways, we'll see how it goes ^_^

Regarding my earlier post - it's interesting that that emotion wasn't spurred at follies, our big, emotional get together, but a few days afterwards... strange that.

So here I sit in the CS lab in Painter - the stereotypical CS major, sitting at a computer, wearing taped up glasses, surrounded by other CS majors working on projects. "No, no, no the string won't work for this - we need to change the class." "Yeah, alright let's try this." It slowly fades into a low murmur of ununderstandable gibberish.

I just walked by Jester for the first time after Orientation this year - I drove up, and half expected to see fellow Orientation Advisors walking out of the building, or cluttering up the lobby. Instead I saw a cleaning woman through the glass doors, sweeping up the dusty floor of the entrance. I walked into the Jester West concourse and into Jester store, and as I left I could literally see the tables set-up for check in - people running around to organize the 1000 people to come through that week. Smiling faces separating parent from child... and it started to hit me - never again. Simply put - never again. Never would I cheer on the aisles of opening session on Day 1, or give a monologue at Diversity. Never again touch people through CI or be able to run up and scream on stage or cheer in the aisles of Traditions, belting out the Fight song. Never again would I be able to walk down to the Jester lobby to be surrounded by friends. Never again would I be able to try and help the program, or make a memory CD (the irony of that statement is rather entertaining) And never again would I have the chance to meet a group of 90 AMAZING people, and try to make as many friends as possible in the short half-year we're together. I think it's starting to hit me.

*sigh* I think I'm going to cry.

ookayy...


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Wow, one of the best feelings in the world is being able to talk to an old friend you thought you lost all contact with, just have an honest conversation with each other, and help each other through random decisions. Thanks, it was good to hear from you again. ^_^

I just got back from follies - the end of the culmination of the three years I have spent with orientaiton. Only after most of the people left and when I talked with Kevin A. did I start to get emotional... I actually started to tear up. Before that point, it was all sleep deprivation numbing everything. But I talked to him, and we both began to tear up. Thanks again, Kevin, you really did help to put me where I am today.

sorry, haven't posted in a long time... NO FREE TIME! Anyways, I have some neat quotes from Punch drunk love.

"I have a love in my life, it makes me stronger than anything you can imagine."
"I just wanted you to know, wherever you're going or whatever you're doing right now, I wanted you to know that I wanted to kiss you back then."
"You've gotta hope that there's someone for you, strange as you are, who can cope with the things that you do without trying too hard."

Will update about the summer later.... too much to do now -_-